If love can be booked

Chapter 243 Shen Wanning meets Lu Jinchuan again, hears about the engagement, faints, and becomes si

Busy days, one after another.

But hearing that he was getting engaged shattered all her dreams, and seeing his happy face and his charming smile, she suddenly didn't want to disturb him.

In those days, she tried every way to get closer to him. But every time she got closer, she always made him angry. Was she wrong? Was she really wrong? Forget, tell yourself to forget every day. Don't think about him, tell yourself not to think about him every day. But it's so hard, so hard.

Now, whether she could do it or not was meaningless, wasn't it? He was getting married, and she lost. She didn't know whether she lost to him, to herself, or to fate.

It's so strange. When happiness comes, if you lose the chance to grab it, then you will miss it forever. And she is the big fool who missed happiness.

Jinchuan, I wish you happiness. I can never say this. You are happy, but what about me? Where is my happiness? I looked outside the door, and it blinked at me and flew away.

"What are you thinking about?" Lu Jinchuan went downstairs, and his eyes inadvertently fell on her who was looking up at the window sill quietly. She stood there like a sculpture, as if she was in deep thought, and even her brows that should have been relaxed were now tightly furrowed.

"Jinchuan." Shen Wanning blurted out, and seeing that he didn't say anything, she hurriedly changed the subject, "General Manager."

When Lu Jinchuan heard her softly calling out his name, he couldn't help but feel an indescribable sense of happiness. Happiness? Why would there be such an inexplicable feeling? Yes, recently, there is always such a feeling lingering in my heart, lingering, and suddenly heard her change her words, although he was a little unhappy, but he didn't say much. After all, it was his request.

"What are you thinking about? You look so absorbed in it." Lu Jinchuan had been looking at her for a while, but she seemed to be in a daze, and no one knew what she was thinking about.

Silly girl, I'm thinking of you, but I know I can't tell you that, I can't.

"I heard you're getting married." However, as she spoke, her beautiful eyes were involuntarily covered with a thin layer of mist. He was getting married. Did she have no chance?

"Do you want me to get married?" He had no plans to get married. If he did, it would only be with her.

"What?" Shen Wanning didn't know why he asked that. Her expression was full of question marks. Did she want him to get married? Did he care what she thought?

"Nothing." Lu Jinchuan also felt it was ridiculous. Why would he ask such a question? He actually didn't want to get married. The person he would marry would only be her, right? Why did marriage suddenly become a topic of conversation?

Silence is temporary suffocation.

He is getting engaged. He is getting engaged. Does it mean that all her efforts are in vain? He is getting engaged. So what should she do?

The air seems to be oppressive.

She couldn't breathe, couldn't control her beating heart, and couldn't suppress her longing for him. What was he thinking about at this moment? Was he also missing him far away like she was?

Thinking back to her past, she never thought that one day she would love someone so deeply. It turns out that some things are not just talk.

Maybe it was just habit! She was used to his company, used to seeing his warm smile every morning when she woke up, used to sharing every little bit of life with him. But suddenly, he disappeared without a trace. This sudden change was beyond her imagination, let alone acceptance.

Does disappearing mean it’s gone?

But who is he? He has the same height, the same face, the same eyes, the same nose, and the same lips as that person, but different behavior and thoughts.

He didn't remember her, didn't he? He didn't remember.

Recalling the good times they had, they rode together on the Ferris wheel that symbolized love, turning slowly, as if they were the only ones left in the world. But now, things have changed, and all she can do is look up at the empty Ferris wheel, relying on the memories in her mind to piece together the sweetness they once had, and the face that was filled with happiness. At that time, no one could disturb them, and everything was so beautiful and pure.

Still alone, isn't he?

Before she met him, she was alone and lived a strong life on her own.

Today, she is still alone, quietly getting used to the natural cycle of flowers blooming and withering, quietly counting the bits and pieces of memories he once left for you. Memories? But it is always hard to let go...

I once naively believed that flowers bloom with sound. They live so persistently, as if proving to the world the tenacity and indomitable spirit of life.

Happiness flew away because he left, taking the memories with him.

She was still here, but why was she left here alone to endure all this? Why couldn't she be taken away from this heartbreaking situation? It wasn't fair, it wasn't fair to her.

When she was sinking into the abyss of sadness and grief, where was his shoulder? Where was his embrace? Was there another woman?

She was jealous, jealous to the point of madness.

When she was dancing with joy, she found that she couldn't find someone who could resonate with her and laugh with her. Who should be left to ignite this spark of joy?

She hated him for taking away everything, everything from them, everything from her. She had nothing, and wanted to wander around alone, but she didn't know where to go.

He once vowed that he would accompany her to every place she wanted to go. Those moving vows still echoed in my ears, but now they seemed so pale and powerless. What did his promise really mean? Was it just an illusory dream that would disappear when I woke up? Tears accidentally slipped down my eyes and flooded. I said I would not miss you, I would not miss you anymore. Can I not miss you?

Thinking back to the days long ago when I was separated from Chu Haoyang, I just felt like something was suddenly missing around me.

Now, he is gone, and her heart is gone with him. It seems as if the whole world has been hollowed out and she has nothing left.

If you think about it carefully, wasn't she originally alone and penniless?

If time could go back and return to the season without him, it would be impossible. Her world had long been filled with the breath he left behind. No matter where she went, the bits and pieces of memories would flood back into her heart like a tide.

There is nothing wrong with being alone. It is just that he is missing a little bit of his concern, a little bit of his tenderness, a little bit of his care, and a little bit of his melancholy. Perhaps, he is happy and blessed now.

In this case, why can't I be more broad-minded and wish him well sincerely?

"As long as you are happy, I will be happy." How familiar! Oh, this was what he often said. In the past, whenever she heard him say this heartwarming sentence, her heart would involuntarily ripple. And now, even though things have changed, this sentence is still deeply engraved in her heart and she can't let it go.

Happy? Lu Jinchuan, when you were with me, were you not happy? Am I the only one who was happy? Have I ever hurt you deeply? Did you struggle and suffer like me when you knew that I couldn't even remember who you were?

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

Maybe you are still you

But I can never go back to the way it was before.

I don't want to force myself anymore

Moreover, I also know that some things cannot be forced.

I have been working hard to live

I try to make myself happy every day

I've forgotten you, I'm at peace

Please don't do this again, okay?

Instead of both of us suffering like this, let's just let go, okay?

I've always been strong

I told myself not to worry, it will all pass.

But why do I still cry for you?

I really want to deceive myself and say that you are still the same you

But the original you has already disappeared

Along with the vague past, it drifts away with the wind

"Jinchuan, Jinchuan..." Shen Wanning shouted, rushing forward desperately, tightly grasping the corner of the figure's clothes. Is it him? That figure seems to be him, is it his?

"Who are you?" The man turned around suddenly, roared angrily, and ruthlessly knocked away Shen Wanning's hand that was grabbing his lapel.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Shen Wan Ning muttered to herself as if she had just woken up from a dream, tears welling up in her eyes. She thought it was him, but it turned out not to be him, really not him, he was a little neurotic, and would mistake him for anyone he saw.

"Psycho." The man cursed harshly, then swung his hand hard. The unsuspecting Shen Wanning immediately lost her balance and fell straight backwards.

"Ah." With a cry of surprise, she fell heavily to the cold and hard ground. The pain from falling to the ground reminded Shen Wanning of her current state. Was she like a madman? She had no image and no persistence.

Because I missed him so much? I thought everyone was like him.

Shen Wanning got up from the ground and walked forward slowly. When he was not around, she couldn't even walk and often fell down for no apparent reason.

Shen Wanning vaguely felt a sharp pain in her ankle. Should I stop?

Jinchuan, if I let go now, will you never come back?

If you don’t like my presence, then I’ll just look at you from afar, okay?

Is it okay to not disturb me, not show up, and just watch from afar?

"Don't cry, don't cry, if it hurts, you will let go." Shen Wanning said to herself, if it hurts, you will let go, right?

No, I won't let go, I won't let go, I don't want to let go, I don't want to let go and I dare not let go, Jinchuan, please don't let me let go, I can't bear it, I really can't bear it. Shen Wanning suddenly felt a black screen in front of her eyes, her feet were powerless, and she fell straight down, feeling that the world was dark.

"Someone fainted." A cry of surprise broke the originally quiet street. People stopped and looked at the fallen figure.

"Quick, call 120." Soon, the ambulance came roaring in, and medical staff quickly launched a rescue operation. They carefully lifted the unconscious Shen Wanning into the car and drove to the hospital at lightning speed.

When Shen Wanning regained consciousness, the first thing she saw was white. Everything around her was white. Where was she? She struggled to lift her eyelids, which felt as heavy as if they were filled with lead, and looked around blankly. After a long while, she finally realized that she was in a hospital.

Hospital? Looking at the busy medical staff coming and going around her, and the unfamiliar faces shaking their heads and sighing, Shen Wanning was filled with confusion and anxiety. What happened to her? She tried desperately to open her eyes and figure out what happened, but her eyelids seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, and no matter how hard she tried, it was useless. Finally, a strong sense of fatigue came over her again, and she could only close her eyes helplessly and fell into a deep sleep again.

"Are you awake?" The nurse asked hurriedly with concern as she watched her slowly open her eyes on the hospital bed.

"Yeah." Shen Wanning nodded weakly and tried to say something, but her throat was dry and painful as if it had been burned by fire, and she couldn't make a sound.

"You finally woke up. You've been sleeping for 48 hours. I wanted to contact your family, but you didn't bring your cell phone." The nurse said while shaking her head gently, her face full of helplessness and anxiety.

"48 hours? 2 days? What happened to me?" She used all her strength to try to sit up, but her body seemed to be pressed down by a mountain and she couldn't move at all.

"Miss, Miss, don't get excited, just lie down." The nurse hurried forward to support her with a look of anxiety, her eyes full of deep sympathy. After all, the woman in front of her looked so young, but she suffered such misfortune.

"Why did I sleep for so long?" Shen Wanning asked weakly, with a hint of panic and confusion in her voice.

After the nurse patiently explained, she finally understood that she had a very serious illness. The cause of the disease was that she had suffered a head collision before, but she did not receive proper medical treatment at the time, which resulted in blood clots in her brain. As time went by, these blood clots turned into cancer cells and spread rapidly. Now, even the doctor said helplessly that even if she had surgery, it would be too late to save her.

In the afternoon, I was discharged from the hospital.

She is running out of time. Jinchuan, can't I wait for you anymore? Can't I love you anymore?

Jinchuan, what should I do? What should I do? I am so scared, so scared, am I really going to lose you? I miss you, miss you, miss you so much, all I can think about is you. Has God already made that difficult decision for her?

She reached out her trembling hand to hail a taxi.

"Master, go to Lu's Comprehensive Chemical Group." I really want to see him. I really want to see him. At this moment, the person I want to see the most is him. Shen Wanning couldn't help crying. Why? Why is it like this?

After getting off the taxi, I ran all the way to his office, but he was not there.

He's not here? He's not here? Where did he go?

"Jinchuan, can you please think about this carefully?" Chen Wanxin walked out from the corner with Lu Jinchuan.

As soon as Shen Wanning saw Lu Jinchuan, she walked up to him and hugged him, as if that was her home, where she felt safe, and she really needed him.

"What's wrong with you? Where have you been these days?" Lu Jinchuan has been looking for her these two days. When she was away, he felt inexplicably anxious, as if something was going to happen.

It's been three days, her phone is not working, she is not at home, not coming to the company, and there is no news from her.

Shen Wanning shook her head gently, her lips trembling slightly, but she couldn't say a word. Tears flowed down her fair cheeks like a flood.

"Shen Wanning, what do you want?" Seeing this, Chen Wanxin walked forward and tried to pull her away.

"Chen Wanxin, please be careful about your words and actions. The consequences are not something you can bear." Lu Jinchuan spoke out to stop her.

"Jinchuan." Chen Wanxin was obviously reluctant, but facing Lu Jinchuan's gloomy face, she finally turned around and left angrily.

"Are you okay? What happened?" He looked at her with concern, her eyes red and tears streaming down her face. Without hesitation, he stretched out his arms, gently picked her up, and walked steadily into the office.

Shen Wanning, who was held in his arms, continued to sob, as if she wanted to vent all her grievances and pain through tears. "I'm fine..." Jinchuan, I love you, I love you so much. Maybe I can't love you anymore, and I can't just look at you from afar like this, what should I do? What should I do?

"Okay, stop crying. It's not good for your health." Lu Jinchuan comforted her gently, caressing her back softly. When Shen Wanning heard this, she cried even more sadly.

In the end, she still said nothing, she didn't know what to say.