I Was Rejected by the Main Character in a Romantic Fantasy

Chapter 81

TN: Thank Nepper for the chapter.

This man is a fool.@@@@

The moment Helena heard Felix’s voice, that was the first thing she couldn’t help but think.

At the very beginning, when Helena realized that the one inside Felix’s body was someone else, she felt betrayal—betrayal toward him for deceiving her for a long time while pretending to be Felix.

It turned into anger, flaring up passionately and consuming Helena.

Of course, Helena herself knew.

He might have tried to deceive her, but it wasn’t with any bad intentions. In fact, he hadn’t touched any women since possessing Felix’s body. Even though he could have easily done so if he had wanted to.

Even apart from that, Helena, who had been close to him, could tell that this person called Lee Shin-woo wasn’t a bad person.

He was surprisingly similar to Felix.

She also knew that it wasn’t his fault that he had possessed his body.

But knowing and understanding were clearly different matters.

Overnight, she had lost the person she had loved all along. It wasn’t something that Helena, who had been living an ordinary life, could easily accept.

That’s why she avoided him. Helena thought that if she met him, something inside her would crumble. She felt that something she had carefully built up until now would shatter to pieces.

But he. He was even more similar to Felix than Helena had thought.

“I won’t move a single step!!”

“...”

“I’ll wait here like this!!”

Hearing his voice from in front of the door, disregarding others’ gazes, Helena, who was inside the room, let out a small sigh.

“...Did he really change?”

At this point, she’d believe it if they said the two were the same person. Helena suddenly thought like that. Maybe she wasn’t weak to Felix but to people with similar personalities.

“I really don’t like this.”

Even as she said that, her body was moving toward the door. With a face reddened from embarrassment, Helena opened the door and found the familiar red hair kneeling with his head bowed in front of the door.

“...Come in.”

Her anger wasn’t gone.

At the same time, she didn’t want to forgive him either.

But.

But...

‘It might be okay to at least listen to what he says.’

That much might be alright.

***

‘Huff...’

I let out a deep breath in my heart.

My fingertips start to tremble slightly. To hide my trembling hands, I grasp them with my other hand, take a deep breath, and continue speaking.

“My memories are gradually disappearing. Felix’s memories are returning more and more, and Lee Shin-woo’s memories are disappearing.”

My name. My age. My background. All my memories.

Slowly, quietly, without anyone knowing, they were being forgotten. What simply remained was just the fragmentary memory that I wasn’t Felix.

But if I keep living like this, will I forget even that memory someday?

Before I knew it, I naturally called Felix’s brother and father my brother and father. While thinking I wasn’t Felix, I was smiling as I recalled memories with them.

I could easily notice Helena’s small habits and remembered and smiled at the trivial memories she mentioned about her.

The fear kept growing.

“It felt like someone was trying to completely erase my existence. So... so I couldn’t say anything even more.”

“...”

“...Truly, sincerely, I’m sorry.”

To exaggerate a bit, it felt like the world was trying to erase me as an impurity.

It felt like it was trying to remove the impurities and put things back where they originally were. It felt like it was trying to completely erase the impurity, ‘Lee Shin-woo,’ and put me back as ‘Felix’ who should have been there originally.

“I stole Felix from you, deceived you, and now I’m making a meaningless apology.”

But I was Lee Shin-woo.

I shouldn’t deny who I was. It would have been easier if I said I wasn’t Lee Shin-woo and was Felix, but I couldn’t bring myself to do that.

If I had even forgotten Lee Shin-woo, then in the end, his existence would have been erased from the world.

“But I thought I had to do it. I did something I shouldn’t have done to you and Felix’s family. About that part, I have nothing to say even a hundred times. I’m sorry.”

Some might say this.

Why should I apologize for something I didn’t do, for something that didn’t happen by my will? Even if it wasn’t something I did and didn’t happen by my will, I was still the person who had taken his place.

So I bowed my head deeply to Helena and offered a sincere apology.

Silence fell in Helena’s room after my short but long confession ended. I couldn’t bring myself to raise my head and just remained frozen in the apologizing posture.

I couldn’t see Helena’s face or expression.

“...Then what happened to Felix?”

“I... don’t really know about that either.”

I answered Helena’s question in a trembling voice after a long silence.

What had happened to the original Felix? That was also an unsolved mystery to me.

“Ha... really...”

With Helena’s deep sigh, I couldn’t help but flinch.

Imagining her sharp words that would follow, I could only swallow dry saliva.

“If it’s like this, who am I supposed to hate?”

But Helena’s words I heard were the opposite of what I had thought.